The Journal, Thursday, 10/19

Hey Folks,

Enjoyed a brief conversation with a dear friend from Dallas this morning. That was a pleasant surprise. Thanks Robert.

Of course, in my current state I probably sounded grouchier than normal, though I don’t think I actually was.

Part of our discussion was about my current endeavor to leave cigars behind. And in that, I’ve had an even more recent epiphany.

If I had a cigar stashed away somewhere and happened across it, there’s a very good chance I would at least light it and take a couple of puffs before putting it out.

Of course, that would re-set my struggle and make my subconscious mind believe, erroneously, that I am not serious about quitting after all. So no, I don’t want to do that.

But that led me to think about when I stopped smoking cigarettes. It was the same sort of thing then.

And then I realized even if someone walked up and offered me a cigarette, I wouldn’t take it. Even as badly as I want a cigar, I have zero desire to smoke a cigarette. Isn’t that weird?

Both are nicotine delivery systems, and cigarettes actually deliver a lot more than that in the form of carcinogens.

But I don’t want one. At all.

And that gives me a great deal of hope.

My stopping smoking cigarettes all those years ago was so complete and so final that even now, when I’m going through withdrawals from cigars, I don’t want a cigarette.

So if I stick to my guns, there’s at least a good chance when all of this is over I won’t want a cigar anymore either. And that’s just a really cool motivator.
***

I actually wrote a little fiction today. I wrote the beginning of what I thought would be a short story (around 700 words), then realized I’d already told that story in “The End Game,” back in June 2016.

It wasn’t exactly the same, but it was the same idea, the same general events and probably a very similar outcome. So it was a different story, but similar enough that once I recognized it, it was too boring to write again. (grin)

I know that story isn’t going anywhere, so I’m not counting the words.
***

Re my WIP, I just don’t know. I really like the series character so I want to write this story. I might have to write yet another (a third) new opening and use the current secondary character elsewhere in the novel or not at all.

Or I might have to set the current WIP aside completely, write a new opening for a new story with the series character, and go from there. Then I can go back and finish the other WIP later, or not.

We’ll see.

Back tomorrow.

Of Interest

Via The Passive Voice, see “The History of the Ampersand” at https://medium.com/black-lion-banner/the-history-of-the-ampersand-c81839171940.

Dean’s Kickstarter campaign is finally over for the revival of Pulphouse Magazine. Maybe he’ll get back to writing now too.

Fiction Words: XXXX
Nonfiction Words: 510 (Journal)
So total words for the day: 510

Writing of Pulp Novel 5 (a Stern Richards novel)

Day 1…… 1080 words. Total words to date…… 1080
Day 2…… 2167 words. Total words to date…… 3247
Day 3…… 1370 words. Total words to date…… 4617
Day 4…… 1840 words. Total words to date…… 6457
Day 5…… 1193 words. Total words to date…… 7650
Day 6…… 1407 words. Total words to date…… 9057
Day 7…… 1180 words. Total words to date…… 10237
Day 8…… XXXX words. Total words to date…… XXXXX

Total fiction words for the month……… 12462
Total fiction words for the year………… 446608
Total nonfiction words for the month… 10090
Total nonfiction words for the year…… 162773
Total words for the year (fiction and this blog)…… 609381

The Daily Journal blog streak……………………………………… 689 days
Calendar Year 2017 Novels to Date………………………… 9
Novels (since Oct 19, 2014)………………………………………… 27
Novellas (since Nov 1, 2015)……………………………………… 4
Short stories (since Apr 15, 2014)……………………………… 182

The Journal, Wednesday, 10/18

Hey Folks,

Not sure what the day will hold. I’ve been a bit depressed lately, mostly because I’m allowing myself some remembrances of a camaraderie I’ll never know again. Sigh. I miss it like air.

I mentioned this to an acquaintance a few days ago and he said, “Well, at least you have the memories. Not everyone has them.”

Well duh.

Of course, what he said is true, but it didn’t help. Not that it was intended to, I suppose.

When he said that it reminded me of the scene in Men in Black in which Agent J caught Agent K looking at a Google Earth image of his wife in her garden.

Agent K quickly closed the scene, and Agent J began with, “Well it’s better to have loved and lost than—”

And Agent K turns on him with some simple but profound advice. “Try it.”
***

The coyotes were yowling out around the home place this morning. My little girl stayed close. Good girl.

Well, it’s late morning and thus far all I’ve accomplished is messing with my Android phone (an old Motorola Razr). It’s already been degraded so a lot of stuff won’t work on it, but because I use it primarily as a TELEPHONE I don’t mind.

I’d almost talked myself into getting a new phone soon and being “connected” all the time, but why? I don’t want to be connected all the time.

The other day I went to the store (about 10 miles away in the next town) and forgot my cell phone at home. When I realized I didn’t have it with me I actually felt FREE.
***

Weird. I haven’t even looked at the WIP for the past several days. Haven’t even opened it to look at it.

I guess I will when the time comes. Until then, I’m not going to worry about it.

Of course, the novel-per-month thing is in the back of my head. But that doesn’t really bother me either.

I think maybe it’s kind of a been-there-done-that sort of thing. I know it’s possible to write a good novel-length story in less than a month (even two, if I pushed) because I already have.

So there’s nothing there to entice me other than simply writing the story. And that can be done in any length of time.

Possibly part of my current fugue is due to my cigar cessation endeavor. Mixed in with the other stuff, of course. Not a big deal. Just indulging in a little self-psychoanalysis. (A buddy in Dallas and another one in Tucson, having read that previous sentence, thought “emphasis on ‘psycho’,” I’ll bet.) (grin)

Anyway, back tomorrow.

Of Interest

Via The Digital Reader, see “The delusions continue” at https://madgeniusclub.com/2017/10/17/the-delusions-continue/. Excellent article.

Also see, for a bit of SF history and even instruction, “When Science Fiction Grew Up” at http://conceptualfiction.com/whenscifigrewup.html. There is also a series of essay links vertically along the right side of this article.

Still wondering how to publish an ebook on Amazon’s KDP platform? Honestly, there’s nothing difficult about it, but if you need to, see “KDP Jumpstart Guides Authors…” at https://the-digital-reader.com/2017/10/17/kdp-jumpstart-guides-authors-steps-publishing-book/.

Fiction Words: XXXX
Nonfiction Words: 530 (Journal)
So total words for the day: 530

Writing of Pulp Novel 5 (a Stern Richards novel)

Day 1…… 1080 words. Total words to date…… 1080
Day 2…… 2167 words. Total words to date…… 3247
Day 3…… 1370 words. Total words to date…… 4617
Day 4…… 1840 words. Total words to date…… 6457
Day 5…… 1193 words. Total words to date…… 7650
Day 6…… 1407 words. Total words to date…… 9057
Day 7…… 1180 words. Total words to date…… 10237
Day 8…… XXXX words. Total words to date…… XXXXX

Total fiction words for the month……… 12462
Total fiction words for the year………… 446608
Total nonfiction words for the month… 9580
Total nonfiction words for the year…… 162263
Total words for the year (fiction and this blog)…… 608871

The Daily Journal blog streak……………………………………… 688 days
Calendar Year 2017 Novels to Date………………………… 9
Novels (since Oct 19, 2014)………………………………………… 27
Novellas (since Nov 1, 2015)……………………………………… 4
Short stories (since Apr 15, 2014)……………………………… 182

The Journal, Tuesday, 10/17

Hey Folks,

Well, I emailed DWS yesterday about CreateSpace closing their online store. He wrote, “Saw it. No books ever sold out of there anyway, so no great loss.”

So there’s another take on it for you.
***

I was going to recommend James Scott Bell’s column over at The Kill Zone Blog, but I decided not to. The title is “Use NaNoWriMo to Repo Your Mojo.” All well and good. But if you go look it up on your own, PLEASE take it with a huge grain of salt.

I’m glad NaNoWriMo exists, and I’m glad so many people have fun with it. Though I suspect the number of professional fiction writers who got their start from NaNo is extremely low, probably hovering somewhere around zero.

The one massive thing I actively DON’T like about NaNoWriMo is that it actually encourages poor writing and holds that ugly practice up as a Good Thing. It isn’t.

Yeah, yeah, I know. Just get the words down, then come back and fix them later. But what’s wrong with getting the words down To The Best Of Your Ability the first time? How is that a bad thing?

Incredibly, even James Scott Bell apparently advocates writing sloppily the first time through, which is hands-down the stupidest advice I’ve ever heard. Again, why would ANYone write poorly intentionally? For that matter, why would anyone do ANYTHING poorly on purpose just so they could come back and clean it up later?

Am I just being a grouch here? I mean, has doing something to the best of your ability somehow become passe?

It reminds me of that old saying: There’s never enough time to do it right, but there’s always time to do it over. Well, there you go.

Bell also actually writes in the article, “It’s a major accomplishment to finish a novel. To do it in one month is astounding.” Again, astoundingly, head-shakingly ridiculous.
***

Today has been a bits and pieces day. Today has been fragmented. I took a vehicle title in to get it switched over this morning, mailed another one out, then swapped out a license plate. All of that pretty much wraps up what was going on yesterday. Finally.

I’m the kind of guy who likes to have things settled. Whether in my favor or not, settled is good. Settled means it’s off my plate and I no longer have to think about it. Settled means I can move on with other stuff.
***

I actually dreamed writing last night. I don’t think I was in my current WIP — or maybe I was in and out of it — but it felt like I wrote for much of the night.

Whatever the story, it kept taking off on tangents. I was up through about Chapter 49 when I woke up a little after 3. That was a very good night. A wonderful night.

Do I remember the dreams? No.

But that’s all right. Whatever I was dreaming is “in there,” so it’ll come out when it’s time.

Back tomorrow.

Of Interest

For a LOT of declassified documents on a range of topics, see The Black Vault at http://www.theblackvault.com/. (This is under Writers’ Resources on my website now too.)

Just for fun, via The Passive Voice see R. Heinlein’s take on “Writing” at http://www.thepassivevoice.com/2017/10/writing-5/.

Dean’s Pulphouse Magazine Kickstarter is winding down. If you’re interested in jumping in, see “36 Hours or Less Left” at https://www.deanwesleysmith.com/36-hours-or-less-left/.

Fiction Words: XXXX
Nonfiction Words: 550 (Journal)
So total words for the day: 550

Writing of Pulp Novel 5 (a Stern Richards novel)

Day 1…… 1080 words. Total words to date…… 1080
Day 2…… 2167 words. Total words to date…… 3247
Day 3…… 1370 words. Total words to date…… 4617
Day 4…… 1840 words. Total words to date…… 6457
Day 5…… 1193 words. Total words to date…… 7650
Day 6…… 1407 words. Total words to date…… 9057
Day 7…… 1180 words. Total words to date…… 10237
Day 8…… XXXX words. Total words to date…… XXXXX

Total fiction words for the month……… 12462
Total fiction words for the year………… 446608
Total nonfiction words for the month… 9050
Total nonfiction words for the year…… 161733
Total words for the year (fiction and this blog)…… 608341

The Daily Journal blog streak……………………………………… 687 days
Calendar Year 2017 Novels to Date………………………… 9
Novels (since Oct 19, 2014)………………………………………… 27
Novellas (since Nov 1, 2015)……………………………………… 4
Short stories (since Apr 15, 2014)……………………………… 182

The Journal, Monday, 10/16

Hey Folks,

Here we go. The first day of the rest of my writing life. (grin) And I’m going to start it in Sierra Vista at a brake shop. So my restart on writing might be one day late. We’ll see.

In major news from the department of Well That Sucks, via The Digital Reader, see “CreateSpace to Close its Web Store” at https://the-digital-reader.com/2017/10/13/createspace-close-web-store/.

Note that this estore closure does NOT affect CreateSpace’s other services. For more on that, I recommend you read the original announcement at CreateSpace: https://www.createspace.com/Help/Index.jsp?orgId=00D300000001Sh9&id=50139000000oxUN.

The biggest immediate impact is that CS pays (well, has paid) an 80% royalty for books sold directly through its estore. Amazon, true to their greedy form, pays a whopping 60%.

This will further widen the gap between authors who already sell a lot of copies and authors who don’t sell as many. I predict it will also burden already struggling print cover designers and interior layout folks.

This causes me to rethink (again) whether going to paper with my books is really all that important. The dwindling royalty makes the $100 I spend for cover and layout considerably larger. Hmmmm.

Damn. And the thing is, I just want to write. So maybe that’s my answer too.
***

Wow. If ever I needed something to soothe my nerves, it was this afternoon.

The day began with my little girl bringing in a packrat. She doesn’t kill them. She just watches them. I’m convinced she’s looking for a friend, someone who will play with her. (In the front yard, she runs with [not chases] rabbits.) But whatever.

I had to get the thing out of the house.

I thought I had done that, and several minutes later I let her outside again. But the idiot packrat remained close by where I let it out.

She grabbed it by the scruff of the neck (like carrying a kitten) and headed for her safe place, under the bed in our bedroom.

So I followed her in there, ran her and her stepsister out, then conducted a meticulous search for the packrat.

Turns out she took her little friend with her and let it go out in the yard. So over all, that was about an hour and a half I’ll never get back.

Then the trip to Sierra Vista to get the brakes repaired on my son’s car. On the phone it was to take about three hours if I could get it there before 9 a.m.

I got it there at 8:15. It was on the rack by 8:20. And it stayed right there on the rack for four straight hours. Then it descended and went next door for an oil change. I finally got back home around 1:30.

Will I write today?

Um, no. I would love to suck the south end out of a northbound cigar, but I won’t do that either. If I did, the frustration would still be there, only then it would be smokey and frustrating. (grin)

No, I’m gonna do zip for the rest of the day, watch a ball game this early evening, then sack out.

And I’m not going to tempt Fate again by saying something stupid like “tomorrow I start writing again.” That’s just crazy talk. I’m seeing that tempting Fate doesn’t generally work out well for me.

So I’ll write again when I sit down and write again. Then, once again, I’ll be a writer. Until then, I’ll be a something-elser.

Back tomorrow.

Of Interest

Via The Passive Voice, see “FBF [Frankfort Book Fair] marred by violent political altercations” at http://www.thepassivevoice.com/2017/10/fbf-marred-by-violent-political-altercations/.

Frankly, I was surprised TPG didn’t comment on this article, as he often does. So anyway, I’ll comment.

The first-ever book-length poetry collection published as an ebook was mine. It was (is) called Lessons for a Barren Population, and it was nominated for the Book of the Year Award at the Frankfort Book Fair in 1996 or 1998. It didn’t win.

And now that great fair, like everything else, it seems, is all gone to politics. Why don’t people just get over themselves? Frankly, when someone begins to opine about something of which they very obviously have zero first-hand knowledge and zero practical experience, I stop listening. Or as I like to put it, “Your right to free speech doesn’t guarantee you an audience.”

Also from The Passive Voice, for a story idea, maybe, see “In the future” at http://www.thepassivevoice.com/2017/10/in-the-future/.

And from Harvey’s Department of Well, No Sh*t, see “School District Pulls To Kill a Mockingbird: It ‘Makes People Uncomfortable'” at http://www.slate.com/blogs/the_slatest/2017/10/14/mississippi_school_district_pulls_to_kill_a_mockingbird_because_it_makes.html.

My opening comment concerning the source department was meant for Arne Duncan, who saw fit to tweet about this toward the end of the article. Ahem. Pretty cheeky tweet IMHO.

Fiction Words: XXXX
Nonfiction Words: 720 (Journal)
So total words for the day: 720

Writing of Pulp Novel 5 (a Stern Richards novel)

Day 1…… 1080 words. Total words to date…… 1080
Day 2…… 2167 words. Total words to date…… 3247
Day 3…… 1370 words. Total words to date…… 4617
Day 4…… 1840 words. Total words to date…… 6457
Day 5…… 1193 words. Total words to date…… 7650
Day 6…… 1407 words. Total words to date…… 9057
Day 7…… 1180 words. Total words to date…… 10237
Day 8…… XXXX words. Total words to date…… XXXXX

Total fiction words for the month……… 12462
Total fiction words for the year………… 446608
Total nonfiction words for the month… 8500
Total nonfiction words for the year…… 161183
Total words for the year (fiction and this blog)…… 607791

The Daily Journal blog streak……………………………………… 686 days
Calendar Year 2017 Novels to Date………………………… 9
Novels (since Oct 19, 2014)………………………………………… 27
Novellas (since Nov 1, 2015)……………………………………… 4
Short stories (since Apr 15, 2014)……………………………… 182

The Journal, Sunday, 10/15

Hey Folks,

I’m really missing (fiction) writing, storytelling, and it will be good to get back to it tomorrow in whatever form it takes.

For me, being immersed in a good story as it develops is like that moment when you smile and sigh as you’re sinking into a tub of hot water. It’s just that good.

One more visiting day with my son and his family and one more day of baseball to see whether the Cubs will tie the series with the Dodgers. I’ll continue following the LCSs tomorrow, etc. but watching games will be secondary to writing.

Oh wow. I nearly broke my Journal posting streak today. I was just in here checking on something else and happened to remember I hadn’t posted it yet. (grin)

Back tomorrow.

Of Interest

Via The Passive Voice, see “Napoleon’s Traveling Library” at http://www.thepassivevoice.com/2017/10/napoleons-traveling-library/.

Also via TPV, see “What copyright does not protect” at https://ucomm.wsu.edu/what-copyright-does-not-protect/.

See “Copyright Term and the Public Domain in the United States” at https://copyright.cornell.edu/publicdomain. (Get a free PDF download at https://copyright.cornell.edu/sites/default/files/2017-08/publicdomain.pdf.)

Fiction Words: XXXX
Nonfiction Words: 200 (Journal)
So total words for the day: 200

Writing of Pulp Novel 5 (a Stern Richards novel)

Day 1…… 1080 words. Total words to date…… 1080
Day 2…… 2167 words. Total words to date…… 3247
Day 3…… 1370 words. Total words to date…… 4617
Day 4…… 1840 words. Total words to date…… 6457
Day 5…… 1193 words. Total words to date…… 7650
Day 6…… 1407 words. Total words to date…… 9057
Day 7…… 1180 words. Total words to date…… 10237
Day 8…… XXXX words. Total words to date…… XXXXX

Total fiction words for the month……… 12462
Total fiction words for the year………… 446608
Total nonfiction words for the month… 7780
Total nonfiction words for the year…… 160463
Total words for the year (fiction and this blog)…… 607071

The Daily Journal blog streak……………………………………… 685 days
Calendar Year 2017 Novels to Date………………………… 9
Novels (since Oct 19, 2014)………………………………………… 27
Novellas (since Nov 1, 2015)……………………………………… 4
Short stories (since Apr 15, 2014)……………………………… 182

The Journal, Saturday, 10/14

Hey Folks,

Just want to take a minute to say thanks for hanging in with me.

When you write a daily blog like this, and especially when you’re determined to share the less-than-good along with the good, you’re going to have some off days.

I’m kind of proud of what I’ve done here for the past two-plus years. I’ve written every single day, even when that writing was only in this Journal.

Thus far, I’ve written one novel every month for this calendar year. (It isn’t lost on me that when I get back to writing on Monday, I’ll have exactly one-half of this month left.)

And I’ve tried to keep the Journal interesting otherwise with occasional Topics of interest to writers and with items in the “Of Interest” section below.

I intend to keep going in that regard as long as I can. But none of it would mean anything without an audience, so thanks again for being there.
***

Enjoyed Game 1 of the ALCS last night. Rolled out a little late this morning.

I’ll probably spend the balance of the morning with my son, messing with the 4-Runner. Then this afternoon and evening, more baseball.

I think some younger folks don’t appreciate baseball the way some older folks do. Sportscaster Howard Cosell once called baseball “two minutes of excitement crammed into three hours.”

But that’s kind of the allure of it for me. Moment by moment, the initial draw isn’t what IS happening but what might happen.

Back tomorrow.

Of Interest

See Linda Adams’ “Adventures at the book sale” at https://lindamayeadams.com/2017/10/14/adventures-at-the-book-sale/. Made me hungry to start visiting book sales.

Fiction Words: XXXX
Nonfiction Words: 280 (Journal)
So total words for the day: 280

Writing of Pulp Novel 5 (a Stern Richards novel)

Day 1…… 1080 words. Total words to date…… 1080
Day 2…… 2167 words. Total words to date…… 3247
Day 3…… 1370 words. Total words to date…… 4617
Day 4…… 1840 words. Total words to date…… 6457
Day 5…… 1193 words. Total words to date…… 7650
Day 6…… 1407 words. Total words to date…… 9057
Day 7…… 1180 words. Total words to date…… 10237
Day 8…… XXXX words. Total words to date…… XXXXX

Total fiction words for the month……… 12462
Total fiction words for the year………… 446608
Total nonfiction words for the month… 7300
Total nonfiction words for the year…… 159983
Total words for the year (fiction and this blog)…… 606591

The Daily Journal blog streak……………………………………… 684 days
Calendar Year 2017 Novels to Date………………………… 9
Novels (since Oct 19, 2014)………………………………………… 27
Novellas (since Nov 1, 2015)……………………………………… 4
Short stories (since Apr 15, 2014)……………………………… 182

The Journal, Friday, 10/13

Hey Folks,

Okay, I’m never again doing anything that’s personal-world earth-shattering while I’m in the middle of writing a novel. Losing a bunch of days to a magical, mysterious haze while writing a novel is not a good thing.

A lot of the haze is gone this morning. So my thought that the primary part of the trial would take three days seems to have held up. However, I’m still a bit foggy headed, and it comes and goes.

Another son and his family are coming to visit this weekend. They’ll arrive later today and stay through Sunday morning.

So I think I’ll take a few more nonwriting days. With any luck, I can dive back into writing on fresh on Monday. In the meantime, I’ll keep this Journal going and as interesting as I can.

I’ll be doing what some like to call “writing related” things. I’m considering putting together a boxed set or two of my mystery/suspense novels.

I was thinking of reading over my current WIP too, but I’ll hold off on that until I know I’ll have time to play. At that point, I’ll read over it and go if it goes or set it aside and write something else if it doesn’t.

If I write something else, probably it will be the same series character with a different crew around him. Anyway, that’s all supposition at this point.

Back tomorrow.

Of Interest

See “A Brief History of the ‘Danse Macabre’” at http://www.atlasobscura.com/articles/danse-macabre-david-pumpkins-art-history.

Via Linda Adams, see “Write Like a Girl” at http://writerunboxed.com/2017/10/07/write-like-a-girl/. Very good article.

Also via Linda, I also enjoyed “Here’s How Not to Critique Romance Novels” at https://jezebel.com/heres-how-not-to-critique-romance-novels-1819188174. At least right up until the author of the article herself invoked a stereotype in the second sentence from the end of the article. So close. (grin)

Fiction Words: XXXX
Nonfiction Words: 300 (Journal)
So total words for the day: 300

Writing of Pulp Novel 5 (a Stern Richards novel)

Day 1…… 1080 words. Total words to date…… 1080
Day 2…… 2167 words. Total words to date…… 3247
Day 3…… 1370 words. Total words to date…… 4617
Day 4…… 1840 words. Total words to date…… 6457
Day 5…… 1193 words. Total words to date…… 7650
Day 6…… 1407 words. Total words to date…… 9057
Day 7…… 1180 words. Total words to date…… 10237
Day 8…… XXXX words. Total words to date…… XXXXX

Total fiction words for the month……… 12462
Total fiction words for the year………… 446608
Total nonfiction words for the month… 7300
Total nonfiction words for the year…… 159983
Total words for the year (fiction and this blog)…… 606591

The Daily Journal blog streak……………………………………… 684 days
Calendar Year 2017 Novels to Date………………………… 9
Novels (since Oct 19, 2014)………………………………………… 27
Novellas (since Nov 1, 2015)……………………………………… 4
Short stories (since Apr 15, 2014)……………………………… 182

The Journal, Thursday, 10/12

Hey Folks,

First, welcome to “fan2orcas,” the most recent subscriber to this Journal. Glad to have you aboard. I’m going through a personal transition at the moment, so not a lot of substance here for a few days. But hang in there. It will pick up again soon. (grin)
***

Woke up to good news this morning. I have another book, The Platinum Blond Perturbance (novella), in an upcoming bundle from BundleRabbit. I’ll post details on the website as they become available.

The request for that book caused me to look at my other similar books. I realized I have two series characters going. City police detective Lou Galecki and the PI Stern Richards. Hmmm. Wonder how they’d work together?

Actually, the last novel I finished, the one I recently got back from my first reader, has Stern Richards and a police detective, but it isn’t Galecki. Maybe I ought to change the name of the detective before I publish that one.

And that reminds me I haven’t published that one yet. I need to do a cover and get that thing outta here. I’ll do that today.

More notes on quitting smoking…

Feeling a little better this morning. Intellectually I know it takes three days to flush out the poison, but that’s not much more than an annoying little factoid when you’re actually going through it. (grin)

Wow. I started creating the cover at around 5:30. That and uploading the book to D2D, Amazon and BundleRabbit has taken 3 hours. The entire process usually takes an hour or less. Still operating through a haze.

I remember, before I took up cigars, there was a certain extra-clarity in everything: thoughts, vision, hearing, all of it. It isn’t that way again yet, but because I remember I know it will be. Clinging to that knowledge keeps me on task.

I was telling a friend this morning that I’ve discovered quitting cigars is considerably different than quitting cigarettes.

Actually, I expected it to be different, but I assumed it would be easier, maybe because I didn’t inhale smoke from cigars, there weren’t as many, etc.

But I’m finding the resurgent cravings are just as frequent but a LOT stronger. There are times when all I can do is sit and focus on taking the next breath.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I won’t give in. That simply isn’t an option. But it’s interesting (to me) to note these things as I’m going through them. It’s a kind of research, I suppose.

Interestingly, today (Day 3) seems as rough as Days 1 & 2, so I’m also wondering whether it might take longer than three days to flush the poison out of my system this time. I guess I’ll know more tomorrow. (grin)

Hope you don’t mind me sharing this stuff as well as the writing stuff. If my experience helps someone else, it’s all good. And I guess if you DO mind, you can just skip over the parts you don’t like. (grin)

I’m just looking forward to getting back to writing. A few days from now I’ll be wondering what all the fuss was about. I hope.

I’m feeling… different. I’m going to take one more day off. I have a feeling I’ll be fully back tomorrow.

See you then.

Of Interest

Via The Digital Reader, see “The great writers forgotten by history” at http://www.bbc.com/culture/story/20171010-the-great-writers-forgotten-by-history. (I was disappointed when I tried to order the ebook and found it was available only to customers in the UK.)

From Linda Maye Adams on Dean’s site, an article on how the mega corporations get writers to write free at http://authorkristenlamb.com/2017/10/welcome-to-the-matrix-you-work-for-free-there-is-no-payday/. Though I must admit, I got lost after awhile. My be my mental cloud or it might be the article going on and on or maybe both, but I still don’t know a) how to unplug or b) from whom or what to unplug. Sigh. I was so looking forward to being unplugged.

Fiction Words: XXXX
Nonfiction Words: 630 (Journal)
So total words for the day: 630

Writing of Pulp Novel 5 (a Stern Richards novel)

Day 1…… 1080 words. Total words to date…… 1080
Day 2…… 2167 words. Total words to date…… 3247
Day 3…… 1370 words. Total words to date…… 4617
Day 4…… 1840 words. Total words to date…… 6457
Day 5…… 1193 words. Total words to date…… 7650
Day 6…… 1407 words. Total words to date…… 9057
Day 7…… 1180 words. Total words to date…… 10237
Day 8…… XXXX words. Total words to date…… XXXXX

Total fiction words for the month……… 12462
Total fiction words for the year………… 446608
Total nonfiction words for the month… 7000
Total nonfiction words for the year…… 159683
Total words for the year (fiction and this blog)…… 606291

The Daily Journal blog streak……………………………………… 683 days
Calendar Year 2017 Novels to Date………………………… 9
Novels (since Oct 19, 2014)………………………………………… 27
Novellas (since Nov 1, 2015)……………………………………… 4
Short stories (since Apr 15, 2014)……………………………… 182

The Journal, Wednesday, 10/11

Hey Folks,

Well, my subconscious is out wandering around the universe on its own, chasing shiny objects and worrying about absolutely nothing. I hope it’s having fun.

I got through the first full day without nicotine. Today is day two. From here on out, it’s just a matter of will power. Well, that and fear.

I am a recovering addict. At the moment, I’m going through the rough part, although that will end soon. But if I take even one more hit of my drug of choice, I’ll have to go through the rough part all over again.

Remembering that and guarding against the necessity of going through this again is a function of the conscious mind. So for now, the conscious mind is fully in charge.

Once it’s safe to let my guard relax, I’ll return most of the control of this insane fleshbag runabout on Starship Earth to my subconscious.

In the meantime, I hope to return bits of control later today or (more likely) tomorrow, at least enough so I can resume playing a little with my PI novel. However, there’s absolutely no rush.

Back tomorrow.

Of Interest

See “Send Your Name to Mars…” at https://www.space.com/38413-your-name-on-mars-nasa-insight-lander.html. Or go straight to the form at https://mars.jpl.nasa.gov/participate/send-your-name/insight/.

Via the Smashwords Blog, see “Rachel Van Dyken on Overcoming Fear” at http://blog.smashwords.com/2017/10/rachel-van-dyken-on-overcoming-fear.html. If you get something out of it, great. She lost me at “…the hate, fear, and insecurity swarming our lovely book community….” What?

Fiction Words: XXXX
Nonfiction Words: 250 (Journal)
So total words for the day: 250

Writing of Pulp Novel 5 (a Stern Richards novel)

Day 1…… 1080 words. Total words to date…… 1080
Day 2…… 2167 words. Total words to date…… 3247
Day 3…… 1370 words. Total words to date…… 4617
Day 4…… 1840 words. Total words to date…… 6457
Day 5…… 1193 words. Total words to date…… 7650
Day 6…… 1407 words. Total words to date…… 9057
Day 7…… 1180 words. Total words to date…… 10237
Day 8…… XXXX words. Total words to date…… XXXXX

Total fiction words for the month……… 12462
Total fiction words for the year………… 446608
Total nonfiction words for the month… 6370
Total nonfiction words for the year…… 159053
Total words for the year (fiction and this blog)…… 605661

The Daily Journal blog streak……………………………………… 682 days
Calendar Year 2017 Novels to Date………………………… 9
Novels (since Oct 19, 2014)………………………………………… 27
Novellas (since Nov 1, 2015)……………………………………… 4
Short stories (since Apr 15, 2014)……………………………… 182

The Journal, Tuesday, 10/10

Hey Folks,

Well, I kind’a held off posting the Jurnal just in case, but today is a nonwriting day. My brain’s too fuzzy. (grin) Might be this way tomorrow too. We’ll see. I’m putting this up only to keep the blog streak going.

Thanks to those who forwarded their good wishes re shedding the nicotine habit. At present I’m wishing I’d never started again.

But it’ll all be fine in a couple more days. Then I can get back to things that really matter.

Back tomorrow.

Of Interest

Nothing really of interest that I saw online today.

Fiction Words: XXXX
Nonfiction Words: 100 (Journal)
So total words for the day: 100

Writing of Pulp Novel 5 (a Stern Richards novel)

Day 1…… 1080 words. Total words to date…… 1080
Day 2…… 2167 words. Total words to date…… 3247
Day 3…… 1370 words. Total words to date…… 4617
Day 4…… 1840 words. Total words to date…… 6457
Day 5…… 1193 words. Total words to date…… 7650
Day 6…… 1407 words. Total words to date…… 9057
Day 7…… 1180 words. Total words to date…… 10237
Day 8…… XXXX words. Total words to date…… XXXXX

Total fiction words for the month……… 12462
Total fiction words for the year………… 446608
Total nonfiction words for the month… 6120
Total nonfiction words for the year…… 158803
Total words for the year (fiction and this blog)…… 605411

The Daily Journal blog streak……………………………………… 681 days
Calendar Year 2017 Novels to Date………………………… 9
Novels (since Oct 19, 2014)………………………………………… 27
Novellas (since Nov 1, 2015)……………………………………… 4
Short stories (since Apr 15, 2014)……………………………… 182